Easter Pictures

I decided yesterday that I wanted to take some Easter pictures of Gabriel...here are some of my favorites. Let me know what you think.









Josh said that he had a cheesy grin in this picture but that is because when I say, "Smile!" Gabriel says, "Cheese!" haha










I love this one for some reason. He looks like he would rather be anywhere else than taking pictures but it is so cute! :)










Another 'cheese' picture but I love the way he is sitting. My handsome little man!










I LOVE this one. It is one of my favorites! I am going to get this one blown up so we can hang it on the wall somewhere...maybe in our bedroom. Ain't he a cutie!?!

And this one is my favorite of all the pictures I took...I think I took 17 or 18 pictures...I'm going to get this one blown up to hang too.

So what do you all think?

Stressful Weekend

The title tells it all. This weekend was so stressful that I am so glad it is over and that is definitely new for me. The biggest thing is that our fridge broke...and we didn't find out it was broken until we got home from buying $200 in groceries.

So instead of spending the whole day cleaning and organizing the house like we had planned, we had to go out and buy a brand new fridge. We have an emergency fund and we had enough money to spend on a new fridge (and a nice one at that) but I hate spending a lot of money like that when Josh doesn't make enough to put it back in any time soon...

And we still haven't fixed his car...it is still in the shop and we don't know how much it is going to be to fix it...and that was coming out of our emergency fund too. I'm really stressed about money anyway, and this didn't help.

And not only did we have to deal with that but Josh's stupid dog Roxy (that we have had so many problems with ever since we have gotten together) is driving me crazy. We have to keep her seperate from Toby (my boxer) because Roxy attacks her and literally tries to kill her. When we leave the house we leave Roxy inside and Toby and Apollo outside.

When we got home, Gabriel went to play in his room and he comes running out saying there was dog poop in his room. Roxy had gone into his room and pooped (twice in one day) after I had let her outside to go before we left...ugh! I was so mad. She is house trained, and I usually trust her in the house alone more than I trust the others, but not anymore. I could have killed her with my bare hands.

I am so over her attitude! She is the moodiest, most spoiled rotten dog on the face of the planet! I want to get a kennel, put it in the back yard, and stick her in there 24/7. Feed her in there, make sure she has water and a little bit of a shelter for when it rains, but keep her there forever!!! That would make me so happy but Josh won't let me do that. But, I swear, if she keeps up with this acting out, I am either going to put her up somewhere or we are going to get rid of her...and Josh will just have to deal with it...

I'm tired of coming up with titles...

So it turns out that my allergies haven't kicked in yet...I was just sick. Josh was sick (he gets sick a lot more now that he works at the hospital but he usually doesn't pass it to us) and then he gave it to Gabriel (but when Gabriel is sick all that happens is he gets a temperature and then he is fine), and then apparently it moved on to me...because now my mom is sick and I'm not anymore. This is good and bad at the same time. Good because I'm not dealing with being sick anymore but bad because that means my allergies are just laying in wait to make their big entrance.

My mom went today and bought one of those books that you record your voice reading it...you have all seen those right? Well, she got it for Tyler to record himself reading it so Gabriel can hear his voice while he is in Afghanistan for the next year. I think it is an amazing idea but I'm not going to be able to listen to it without breaking down...and we aren't even sure if Tyler is going to be able to make it through recording it without breaking down himself.

When Tyler gets back from overseas, we are going to get a tattoo together. We are going to get the tattoos of Aequitas and Veritas like the brothers from Boondock Saints have...we aren't going to get them on our hands, obviously, but that is the plan...I just have to figure out where to get mine and if I am getting one and he is getting the other or if we are both getting both of them. I wanted to get the tattoos before he went but he couldn't because he already had all of his bloodwork done and he wasn't allowed to get another tattoo until he gets back.

So...as the wedding this past weekend, the bridal party all got Batman shaped silly bands and I grabbed another one for Tyler because Batman is his favorite superhero...I asked if he would wear it while he was overseas and I would wear mine and whenever he looked down at it he could think of me/us and everytime I look down at mine I would think of him...even though I won't need a bracelet to be thinking of him the whole time he is gone...

Random post, I know...which is why I hate coming up with titles for entries that are all over the place and don't have a set theme haha

All or Nothing...

I realize now that I haven't been giving 100% to anything. I have only been doing things half way and that isn't getting me anywhere...so here goes!

No more half. No more almost. No more!

From now on it is All or Nothing...and I chose All! I'm not doing this anymore. I'm so tired of not getting any results and giving up. It is my fault I'm not gettting any results in the first place because I'm not giving it everything.

I don't want to stay like this forever and I can't keep putting it off. There is no time like the present!!

You're Lucky

I had written a long entry feeling sorry for myself and I almost posted it...but I decided to delete it and write a less depressing one.

I am still feeling sorry for myself and feeling down in the dumps but I am pretty sure it is because I am sick and it is Hell Week and I'm exhausted...but as soon as these things (or at least 2 out of 3) are remedied, I will be fine! And since it is supposed to be nice tomorrow and I have the car, I believe I might go to Booker T. Washington and hike the trail! I haven't been exercising like I need to be, but I am trying not to let it get me down. I just haven't felt like exercising because I feel like crap...

And it is too stinkin' hot in this house! You know how you feel miserable when you are hot and there is no escape?? Yeah, that's another thing bringing me down! I tripped up a little this weekend with my eating, but I am back on the ball with that too...

So.....this is definitely less depressing than I had written down, but it was still a bit depressing. Hopefully when I start feeling better I can write a more upbeat post.

Drowning...

I literally feel like I am drowing...these last few days have been interesting to say the least. The wedding was great but the whole day was a little overwhelming. My allergies kicked in and I was miserable the whole day. Everything that could go wrong did and I was completely and totally exhausted by the end of the day. I told Leslie (the bride) that I didn't have that many problems on my own wedding day.

Sunday was good other than my allergies because we spent the whole day with my brother and we had a great time. Today hasn't been as good...I have been miserable all day with my allergies and Hell Week and over all just feeling like crap.

We met Tyler for lunch and had a nice time and then I had to watch him walk away from us to be gone for another three weeks. As I watched him disappear around the corner, I broke down. I don't know what I am going to do the last time I see him before he leaves to be gone overseas for a year...

I think the biggest reason as to why I broke down (other than the fact that I am sad to watch him leave) is because I am overwhelmed and I feel like crap. That always puts me in a mood and never a good one. I'm stressed beyond belief, things just keep piling on, and I am literally drowning in a sea of desperation...

Ugh!

Weddings

So, one of my besties is getting married on Saturday and I am a bridesmaid. My dress is gorgeous and I can't wait to wear it! The rehersal is Friday night and that afternoon I have an appointment for a manicure and a pedicure and I am so excited!

Not only is this weekened going to be great because of Leslie's wedding, but my big brother will be in this weekend. Leslie is his friend too so he is coming to the wedding too. He will only be in from Friday until Tuesday and then he leaves to be gone for another three weeks of training somewhere else. I will post pictures if I remember to charge my camera and can get someone to take some pictures. I know there will be some from the professional photographer, but I am going to take some of my own too. This is a short little post but I am still trying to figure out how the heck to get my spaces back and what I did to mess it up...

Cute

I absolutely adore this picture of my dad and my little man...it is so cute!! :)