Friday, November 25, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Now, my family is very close, and that is why I thought this year would be ridiculously hard on all of us (and it has been, don't get me wrong), but now my parents are moving. We live about twenty minutes away from them and we go over to their house at least once a week if not twice a week or so and since they are going to be moving a few hours away, it will be moved down considerably. I am really not looking forward to it and I know they aren't either.
On a good note, Josh and I are doing a lot better than before...our marriage hasn't been the greatest so far...and it is definitely better now than it has ever been. We are even sitting down together and drawing out our dream home that we are going to build sometime in the future...(it could be twenty years from now before we can afford it, but I really hope it doesn't take that long.)...
I took some pictures of Gabriel this week and they turned out so great! I was going to make them Christmas pictures but they look more like Fall pictures so I am going to take some more Christmas pictures a little closer to December. I will post those pictures soon.
Well, that was a bit of a random post but I don't have a whole lot more to say at the moment...catch y'all later!
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
What do you guys think??
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
In the meantime, I have been giving my entire house an overhaul! It is ridiculous how much I have done in the past three days and how much still needs to be done...but we switched Gabriel's room to the third bedroom. It is a bigger room than the one he was in and it is painted a dark teal color from when it was Josh's old bedroom. He now has a full bed instead of a twin and it looks so much like a little boy's room instead of a baby room like his other one did.
If Josh and I ever have another little munchkin, the other room will be turned into a nursery, but for now it is going to be a library/home gym and I can't wait!! I have already moved my bookshelves in there from my bedroom and put a table in it for a television eventually, but what do you all think?
I have an Ab Circle machine and The Wave and they are both going in there. Tomorrow I am getting a Pilates Reformer and that is going in there and then it will be complete (once we get the tv obviously) and I'm so excited!!
Now, for the bad news from this week. Mom, Dad, Gabriel, and I were supposed to go up to Ft. Dix June 16-19th because Tyler had a pass and that way we could see him off because that is when he is leaving to go overseas. Well, he (and everyone else going) had to get a Smallpox vaccine yesterday and that means that there is a possibility he could give the disease to someone within the first 30 days of getting the vaccine. As much as I want to see Tyler off, there is no way I could take the chance of Gabriel getting anything. I cried for an hour...Mom and Dad are still going so he will still have someone there and I will see him when he gets back, but I was devastated.
I guess that's it for today. I will take more pictures tomorrow when I get my reformer and get it set up in my gym :) and then when I get everything in the house set up and cleaned. I can't wait until it is all done.
Monday, May 16, 2011
We had his going away cookout yesterday and it was great. I don't have a lot to write but I wanted to share a picture with everyone because it is precious!!!
My little man with his Uncle Tyler...isn't it adorable?!?! This one is definitely getting printed out and hung up somewhere in the house...and soon!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
Monday, May 2, 2011
How can he be turning 3? He's not so little anymore!! This picture was taken in the hospital when he was just a day or two old. I can't believe how much he has changed and just how fast these three years have literally flown by.
On Thursday we are going to Natural Bridge to the Safari Park, the drive thru section and the walk thru section, because he loves animals and some of his favorites are there. He will be able to touch and feed a giraffe and I know he is going to love it!
Josh and my mom have off that day, dad took off, and my brother will be back tonight from training so we are all going and I can't wait!.
And then Gabriel's Spongebob birthday party is on Saturday...I will definitely post pictures!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Josh said that he had a cheesy grin in this picture but that is because when I say, "Smile!" Gabriel says, "Cheese!" haha
I love this one for some reason. He looks like he would rather be anywhere else than taking pictures but it is so cute! :)
Another 'cheese' picture but I love the way he is sitting. My handsome little man!
I LOVE this one. It is one of my favorites! I am going to get this one blown up so we can hang it on the wall somewhere...maybe in our bedroom. Ain't he a cutie!?!
Monday, April 18, 2011
So instead of spending the whole day cleaning and organizing the house like we had planned, we had to go out and buy a brand new fridge. We have an emergency fund and we had enough money to spend on a new fridge (and a nice one at that) but I hate spending a lot of money like that when Josh doesn't make enough to put it back in any time soon...
And we still haven't fixed his car...it is still in the shop and we don't know how much it is going to be to fix it...and that was coming out of our emergency fund too. I'm really stressed about money anyway, and this didn't help.
And not only did we have to deal with that but Josh's stupid dog Roxy (that we have had so many problems with ever since we have gotten together) is driving me crazy. We have to keep her seperate from Toby (my boxer) because Roxy attacks her and literally tries to kill her. When we leave the house we leave Roxy inside and Toby and Apollo outside.
When we got home, Gabriel went to play in his room and he comes running out saying there was dog poop in his room. Roxy had gone into his room and pooped (twice in one day) after I had let her outside to go before we left...ugh! I was so mad. She is house trained, and I usually trust her in the house alone more than I trust the others, but not anymore. I could have killed her with my bare hands.
I am so over her attitude! She is the moodiest, most spoiled rotten dog on the face of the planet! I want to get a kennel, put it in the back yard, and stick her in there 24/7. Feed her in there, make sure she has water and a little bit of a shelter for when it rains, but keep her there forever!!! That would make me so happy but Josh won't let me do that. But, I swear, if she keeps up with this acting out, I am either going to put her up somewhere or we are going to get rid of her...and Josh will just have to deal with it...
Thursday, April 14, 2011
My mom went today and bought one of those books that you record your voice reading it...you have all seen those right? Well, she got it for Tyler to record himself reading it so Gabriel can hear his voice while he is in Afghanistan for the next year. I think it is an amazing idea but I'm not going to be able to listen to it without breaking down...and we aren't even sure if Tyler is going to be able to make it through recording it without breaking down himself.
When Tyler gets back from overseas, we are going to get a tattoo together. We are going to get the tattoos of Aequitas and Veritas like the brothers from Boondock Saints have...we aren't going to get them on our hands, obviously, but that is the plan...I just have to figure out where to get mine and if I am getting one and he is getting the other or if we are both getting both of them. I wanted to get the tattoos before he went but he couldn't because he already had all of his bloodwork done and he wasn't allowed to get another tattoo until he gets back.
So...as the wedding this past weekend, the bridal party all got Batman shaped silly bands and I grabbed another one for Tyler because Batman is his favorite superhero...I asked if he would wear it while he was overseas and I would wear mine and whenever he looked down at it he could think of me/us and everytime I look down at mine I would think of him...even though I won't need a bracelet to be thinking of him the whole time he is gone...
Random post, I know...which is why I hate coming up with titles for entries that are all over the place and don't have a set theme haha
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
No more half. No more almost. No more!
From now on it is All or Nothing...and I chose All! I'm not doing this anymore. I'm so tired of not getting any results and giving up. It is my fault I'm not gettting any results in the first place because I'm not giving it everything.
I don't want to stay like this forever and I can't keep putting it off. There is no time like the present!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I am still feeling sorry for myself and feeling down in the dumps but I am pretty sure it is because I am sick and it is Hell Week and I'm exhausted...but as soon as these things (or at least 2 out of 3) are remedied, I will be fine! And since it is supposed to be nice tomorrow and I have the car, I believe I might go to Booker T. Washington and hike the trail! I haven't been exercising like I need to be, but I am trying not to let it get me down. I just haven't felt like exercising because I feel like crap...
And it is too stinkin' hot in this house! You know how you feel miserable when you are hot and there is no escape?? Yeah, that's another thing bringing me down! I tripped up a little this weekend with my eating, but I am back on the ball with that too...
So.....this is definitely less depressing than I had written down, but it was still a bit depressing. Hopefully when I start feeling better I can write a more upbeat post.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Sunday was good other than my allergies because we spent the whole day with my brother and we had a great time. Today hasn't been as good...I have been miserable all day with my allergies and Hell Week and over all just feeling like crap.
We met Tyler for lunch and had a nice time and then I had to watch him walk away from us to be gone for another three weeks. As I watched him disappear around the corner, I broke down. I don't know what I am going to do the last time I see him before he leaves to be gone overseas for a year...
I think the biggest reason as to why I broke down (other than the fact that I am sad to watch him leave) is because I am overwhelmed and I feel like crap. That always puts me in a mood and never a good one. I'm stressed beyond belief, things just keep piling on, and I am literally drowning in a sea of desperation...
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Not only is this weekened going to be great because of Leslie's wedding, but my big brother will be in this weekend. Leslie is his friend too so he is coming to the wedding too. He will only be in from Friday until Tuesday and then he leaves to be gone for another three weeks of training somewhere else. I will post pictures if I remember to charge my camera and can get someone to take some pictures. I know there will be some from the professional photographer, but I am going to take some of my own too. This is a short little post but I am still trying to figure out how the heck to get my spaces back and what I did to mess it up...
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
I already have small wings on my shoulder blades, but I am going to get them about this size. They are going to look a little different from this but this is the size they are going to be...obviously they have to be closer together at the top to cover my existing wings and they are going to have maroon and light blue in them instead of just black and grey...but this is going to be what I get when I have reached my goal!
I am SSSOOOOOOOOOO PUMPED!!!!!!!! Yay! Go me!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Josh took Gabriel tonight when he got home from work to play with one of his friends up the street so I could have some time. I haven't been feeling well and Gabriel was a terror today...I had every intention of sitting around the entire time and feeling sorry for myself while they were gone, but instead, I got up and exercised and now I am drinking a bottle of water. I basically wasted this entire day, but I am getting on the right track.
I am not going to let tomorrow be like today. I am going to take Gabriel outside and let him run around and I am going to run around too and I am going to exercise at some time tomorrow. And I have to help my dad lose weight too...I get my laziness from him...so this is a struggle for both of us.
But I am going to do this, and I am going to do it my own way! No Weight Watchers or counting calories...by shear Will Power I am going to lose weight and get in shape!
It is definitely going to be a workout, they start moving and they don't stop until the end of the video (and they are all 40 minute videos) so I know I am going to be sweating about two seconds in, but it looks like so much fun. It's a mix of dance, ballet, and yoga!
If you haven't heard of this, go youtube some of the workouts. The instructors are a bit weird but fun at the same time. Has anyone ever tried YBB? I would like to hear some feedback...
The package that I bought comes with a nutrition guide, so I might follow that...I just don't know what I am going to do. But I know I have to do something because if I keep eating the way I have been eating, then it is going to completely cancel out the exercise I will be doing.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Secondly, I haven't been to see a movie in theaters in a long time and just in the past few days I have seen four movies in theaters. I went first with my friend Leslie (whose wedding I am in on April 9th) to see Red Riding Hood. Has anyone seen that yet? What did you think of it? I LOVED it!! And then I went with my cousin Megan and my youth pastor's wife Jenn on Saturday to see Gnomeo and Juliet in 3D and that was really cute. Yesterday I went to see Red Riding Hood again (told you I loved it) with my brother. We used to go see movies all the time together...movies were our things...but we haven't been able to go for a while. So after we had seen Red Riding Hood, we decided to go see Rango.
And I guess the third thing is the reason Tyler and I went out to spend some time together...he leaves on Friday for training. He will be gone until the beginning of April when he will be here for a week. He leaves again and will be here at the beginning of May and he will be here for three weeks (he will be here for Gabriel's third birthday) and then he leaves to go to Afghanistan for a year...
I got a little emotional last night when Tyler left the house. Gabriel was really tired and he was screaming because he didn't want Tyler to leave. As Tyler was walking away and out to his car, I picked Gabriel up and he wrapped his arms around my neck and hugged tight and we both just cried. I have been trying not to think about Tyler being gone, but I can't help it because it is getting closer...
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
I have realized something...This isn't something that is happening to me, it was my decision to go on Weight Watchers and lose weight so I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and get up and do something! I have decided that I am going to start doing yoga again. I used to love doing it, it was so relaxing and fun and wonderful. I did it while I was pregnant too because I have tons of yoga dvds and one was Yoga Mama for pregnant women. I have my own mat because when I was going to Virginia Western I took a yoga class and it was my favorite class of them all...go figure haha.
I am going to be super strict on my points from right now on and I am going to do my yoga and maybe one my dancing videos when Gabriel is taking a nap because I can do yoga while he is watching TV or playing...it won't be as relaxing that way, but there is only so much you can do when you have a toddler that doesn't take a nap during the day and he enough energy for five people haha.
This isn't something that is happening to me, it is my choice for a change and I am going to embrace it!!
As they said on the new Robin Hood with Russell Crowe..."Rise And Rise Again Until Lambs Become Lions!"
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
I got Gabriel into bed last night really early and then came back into the bedroom to watch TV for a little while...right before I decided to go to sleep, Gabriel came into the room saying he didn't feel good. So I let him stay in there with us for a while and he fell back to sleep, but when I tried to take him back to bed, he clung to me and wouldn't let go...
Against my better judgement, I let him sleep with us even though I try not to do that...I want him to stay in his bed every night and not get used to sleeping with us...but I gave in last night. So when Josh got up at six this morning for work, Gabriel woke up and didn't go back to sleep...
Right from the start, it was a bad morning. I am not a morning person at all and I usually don't fall asleep until after midnight and then I hate getting up any earlier than I have to...so I was cranky because he got up earlier than he usually does...
I have been following my diet for almost a month and I have only lost 3 pounds...so I am starting to get really discouraged and I haven't been following it yesterday or today...and then I feel like crap because I haven't been following it but then I think that it won't do me any good to follow it but it still makes me feel like crap...
I hate days like this...my already low self esteem goes through the floor...
Monday, March 7, 2011
The first picture is of Gabriel's playroom...
This is the den area. We have the big screen tv in our bedroom (and it is like watching a movie in a theater haha) and the smaller tv in the den so we wanted the couch close to the tv so we could actually see it. The couch and tv used to be where Gabriel's playroom is now...
Here is our dining room. Gabriel's toys used to be here and the table used to be where the couch and tv are now. Our movies that you can see on the right side used to be in our spare/storage room and we could never get to them, so we wanted to move them out where we could get to them easier...
And here are our movies! This isn't all of them, the rest of them are still in the spare room along with all of our tv series collections. I didn't want it to look too crowded so we left them hidden in the room...
Friday, March 4, 2011
I have most of the Percy Jackson series but I don't have the last book so I don't know if I should start that series until I get the last book. I also have Inkheart but I don't have the other two books in the series. Those books are thicker than the Narnia books so I would have enough time to get them before I needed them but I kinda wanted to start a series that I had all of the books in...
The only problem with that is that the only series I have all of the books for is the Lord of the Rings series but I have never read them. I'm not really worried about the content of the books but I don't want to be falling asleep while I am reading them to him...but I do want him to fall asleep haha. Has anyone read them? Are they as entertaining and fast paced as the movies? Are the movies even anything like the books?
I don't suppose I have to read a series to him, I could just read classics that I have like The Three Musketeers, Little Women, Gulliver's Travels...just curious if anyone has any suggestions of books I should get and read to him.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I am really not looking forward to having no internet while my brother Tyler is overseas, but I am going to try to make the best of it. When Josh is able to get a better paying job with Carilion and move up into a different field at the hospital sometime this summer, we might be able to get the internet back.
I still have internet on my phone so I can check my email and my facebook and such, but it just won't be the same. This will be a bit of a blessing because it will cut down on the distractions I have in my life and I will be able to focus more on my novel and my new Bibly study that I started on Monday, and really losing weight and keeping my house clean and preparing for us to have another baby in our house hopefully within the next two years...and it will help us to save as much money as we can with the little amount that we have coming into the house...
I just wanted to give everyone a heads up that I won't be on here as often as I am...and please continue to keep us in your prayers as we deal with financial struggles...
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Our dining room, living room, den, and kitchen are basically all one big room with a beam in the middle. I wanted to keep it as open as possible but I definitely wanted to change it up a bit. So I rearranged EVERYTHING!! I cleaned and swept and organized as I went, but there is nothing that it in the same place as it was before. And I LOVE it!!!
I still have a lot of laundry to put away and to wash, and I still have some things to organize and put away, so that is what I will be focusing on today...I hate cleaning, but yesterday was really fun! And having a new house...basically...is always a good way to shake things up and keep them interesting.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
I believe I told the story on here about the first time that Apollo caught a chicken after chasing them for many months...it wasn't a pretty sight. But, I called over there and told them that Apollo had killed a chicken and it turned out to be a rooster...which was fine at the moment because they had too many roosters anyway and they were going to kill and eat them eventually...well, a few weeks later, they called Josh to tell him that Apollo had killed yet another rooster, but he had killed the one that they were going to keep.
So far, he has killed about seven roosters I think (they had ten I believe), and they were mad. Well, my dogs are contained within my yard by a fence. It isn't my fault that your stupid roosters keep coming over the line and getting themselves killed my my dog. It isn't like he left our yard and ran over there and killed one. I could see that as being our fault, but he doesn't leave the yard. But every single day, those stupid chickens are strutting around right on the line and every once in a while, one crosses over too far and Apollo grabs it.
We have told them to put the chickens up because they keep coming in our yard and that is why Apollo kills them...but they still let them run around. Yesterday, Gabriel was looking out the window and he said, "Look, mommy, a chicken!" so I went to look but about that time, the chicken went around the side of the house and Apollo spotted him...and he took off and went around the house after him. I ran around to the back windows and saw Apollo coming around the back of the house with yet another chicken in his mouth...and he was running back towards the front of the house. So I went and shut the front door really quick so Gabriel wouldn't see it because he kept asking me where the chicken went and I just kept saying, "I don't know, sweetie."
So I texted Josh and told him to call his uncle and tell him that if he wants to keep any of his stupid chickens alive, he needs to put them up and stop letting them run wild and get themselves killed. He didn't call him, and I don't blame him, because he will be mad and act like it is our fault! I'm sorry your moronic chickens keep waltzing over to our yard, where they know an extremely large dog lives, and then never returning home...but it isn't my fault! And it makes me mad to know that they will blame it on us...ugh!
Sorry, I know, completely random blog post, but I had to vent about those friggin' chickens!! They drive me crazy!!!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
I have also been doing really good with only drinking one bottle of Diet Mtn Dew per day and not drinking any caffeine after 6 p.m....it has helped me fall asleep faster! But...and I don't know if this is related at all...I have had really strange dreams for the past two nights. I dream a lot and I remember most of my dreams too unlike a lot of people, but two nights in a row and them being about a ten on the weird scale...that is definitely new for me. I love to dream, even if they are weird dreams, because they are fun. But if they are sad, or a bad dream about my son, that is when I don't like it. I am curious to see if I will be dreaming another crazy dream tonight.
Monday, February 21, 2011
I have also decided to cut back on my Diet My Dew intake and up my water intake...so I am going to stop drinking any and all caffeine after 6 pm (because I can't sleep to save my life and I don't know if that is part of it but we will see) and I am only going to drink one thing of DMD (whether it be an 8 oz glass, a 12 oz bottle, or a 24 oz bottle like I have now) and then drink water the rest of the day...that way I can still have my drink but I will be drinking more water and I am hoping that will speed up my weight loss. And instead of weighing myself so often, I am going to weigh myself every Monday morning (starting next Monday) and no more...
Oh, and we aren't going to be able to have a baby right now because we can't afford it...we got his first paycheck from the hospital and it is way way WAY less than he used to get with his other job...and way less than we thought it was going to be. We are going to wait until he can move up in the hospital and get a better paying job...at least we hope to. But I am still going to stay on WW until I get pregnant again (unless I reach my ultimate goal before then) just to get into the habit of doing it again...
Friday, February 18, 2011
I am also excited because my parents are coming to get Gabriel today and I get a break...well not really, because I have to clean. But they are going to New Orleans for a week and before they go on a trip they like to spend as much time with him as they can because they see him so often, they don't like going too long without seeing him if they can help it. I don't know what they would do if we ever moved away.
This is going to be a short post because I have to get Gabriel ready but I might write some more later.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Yesterday was a pretty good day, all in all...Gabriel went to the potty four times and he wore his Pull-Ups training pants for the last half of the day. I'm still not wanting to put him in regular underwear because he doesn't tell me everytime he has to go to the potty...he just tells me the times when he wants to go. Once I get him really working and going to the potty more times than he uses his trainers, I will start putting him in underwear.
I really would like to have him potty trained before his birthday which gives me almost three months...I am a little behind on getting him potty trained because I haven't been working with him as diligently as I should have been...but I definitely want him trained before we have another baby because I only want one in diapers!
I want to redo the bathroom next to Gabriel's room, which will be his bathroom, in something for him. It is also the bathroom that everyone uses when they come to our house, but I want it to be his bathroom. I want to make it into a kiddie bathroom so he will feel like it is his...but I don't know what theme I want it to be yet. They have great stuff at Target and Walmart, so I am just going to have to do some looking around and see which one I like best.
Okay, so this was definitely a random post, and not what I thought I would be writing about, but this is just something that has been weighing on my mind a lot.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Day One of Weight Watchers has gone pretty good so far. Josh and I have been talking about it and I also talked to Tyler and we aren't sure if we are going to wait til June to start trying to get pregnant again. Tyler told me that he wouldn't be upset or offended or anything if I had a baby while he was overseas, and he is excited that we are going to have another baby soon. And since I am on Weight Watchers now, I won't mind getting pregnant before I lose all of the weight because I will still have enough time to lose all of it before I really start gaining any baby weight.
The only thing we are waiting on is for Josh to quit smoking. He wants to quit anyway, and there is a program with Carilion that will pay for everything he needs to quit...like the gum or the patch...and I am pretty sure it is a support group type of thing too. So, that is his motivation to stop smoking and that is my motivation to lose weight....
My will power is really being put to the test now because we have so much candy and so many sweets in the house left over from Valentine's Day and just in general, but I am determined to stay strong and lose this weight...as much as possible...before I get pregnant again.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
He propped George up on his daddy's pillow and leaned back against him to read a book...George is now sitting on the floor with Gabriel while he is playing and running around.
He absolutely loves his Valentine's Monkey George...I don't know how long it will last, but for now it is adorable! And I had to share! :)
Saturday, February 12, 2011
We got the truck so we wouldn't have to share a car anymore and after spending a few thousand dollars, we were still sharing a car. I have hated that truck since the minute he bought it. We don't need to go a lot of places but we haven't been able to do anything like getting our weekly adjustment at the Chiropractor or spending time with my family on Thursdays which has been a weekly thing for as long as I can remember...it was frustrating. Plus, being stuck at home was really driving me crazy...I couldn't just get out of the house if I wanted to and be around other people.
Now that Josh is working two jobs in Roanoke instead of one job at the lake (not ten minutes from our house), we wanted to sell his truck and get a car that is better on gas milage for him to drive...oh yeah, and one that actually runs! A friend of his had a car that he wanted to trade for an SUV or a truck, so Josh talked to him the other night about trading the car for his truck...
MATER IS FINALLY GONE!!!!! He came over last night, left his car here, and took the truck for good. Thank goodness!!! Now, the car needs a few things before he can drive it but Josh is taking care of them today so that I can have my car back to go to church tomorrow. I am so happy to see that truck go! I just hope this car lasts for a while.
Friday, February 11, 2011
I also thought that this would be the perfect time to get pregnant again because it would give me something to be happy about while Tyler is gone. I'm going to be a wreck while he is gone and being pregnant and looking forward to having another little munchkin on the way would definitely be something to be excited about. It would bring some joy to a not so joyous time.
AND...it would also give me four months to lose this weight that I wanted to lose before I got pregnant again. There is my motivation! I already told Josh that when I got pregnant again I was going on Weight Watchers to keep from gaining too much weight like I did with Gabriel and I don't want to be in this position again...
I am also in my friend Leslie's wedding in April and my dress is gorgeous. It fits, but it would look even better if I lost a bit of weight before then...I am getting excited about the next few months and that is really saying something because I have really been dreading this year for a while just because my best friend isn't going to be here...he will be in danger overseas and I was already planning for a bad year.
But with this plan...this year is looking up already. :)
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Josh has been training all this week and he really likes his new job, and he started driving the bus again on Friday. He is excited about having two jobs, but I know it is going to wear him down really quick. We don't know how much he will be making, but we went together and filled out the applications and paperwork for our benefits and we are both really excited about that...and we are willing to work with less money for the benefits that we are getting.
Also, Josh is excited already about moving on up and getting a better job with more pay and better hours. He has his foot in the door with all jobs Carilion and he is definitely excited...we both are.
And now that I have said excited a million times, maybe I should talk about something else...but the only problem with that is I really have nothing else to say. Things are going pretty good now but I am still stressed. And I'm not even sure if I am really stressed or if I am just in a rut. Do you ever get in a rut where you just fell blah all the time?? That is exactly how I am feeling now and have been feeling for a while.
I'm not exactly sure what to do about it either and it is not a fun way to feel. I really want to get things moving...I am very impatient. I want to swim and be in the water and take my scuba classes and get my dives in and become an instructor and I want it all to happen now. Then again, I want to lose the rest of this weight that I can't seem to get rid of...and I want that gone now and I am so blah and discouraged because things are so slow paced that it is driving me crazy! Ugh! I think I am going to stop ranting and go work on my novel (one of many that I am working on at the moment) while I have some great ideas in my head...who knows how long that will last! :)
Thursday, January 27, 2011
So, Josh went yesterday for an interview with the railroad. It was an all day hiring session that he would go to the first part of the day and take tests and whatever the instructors wanted them to do and then they would take a break. After the break, they would come back and the instructors would call the names of the ones who would remain for a one on one interview and if your name wasn't called, you went home. Well, Josh wasn't called for an interview.
However, during the break, he got a call from the lady at the hospital that he had been going to for interviews and such and she offered him the job...which he, of course, accepted. He goes in on Monday for orientation and then we think he will start work next Friday. He will be working Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday every week, ten hour days. He went this week to the bus company that he used to drive for and asked if they would hire him back to work Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursdays since those were the only days he was off. They said yes and he went to get everything taken care of so we are waiting for everything to come back before he will start driving again...and that could take a few weeks.
There are still a few things that we are waiting on that have been a little stressful, but at least Josh has a job now...well, two jobs. We filed our taxes and we should be getting that money back soon and that will help my stress levels go down a ton...because all of that money will be going back into our savings.
We have been taking Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University and that is going to teach us how to save our money and be smart with the money we will be making and that will make me very happy! Josh won't be able to come with me anymore after this weekend because he will be working, but we will be able to go over it together and I am the one that deals with the money anyway...so I am excited to get rockin' and rollin'!
Thanks again for all of the prayers!!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Aren't men the biggest wimps when it comes to being sick?? When Josh is sick, he lays around and does nothing but whine and complain and I have to do everything...bring him food, hand him the remote when it is only inches out of his reach, get him something to drink, change the movie...everything. Now, none of this would be the problem if he did the same things for me when I was sick. But does he? Yeah right!!!
Not only does he not help me with anything, he disappears!! "I don't want to get sick!" he says as he leaves the house to go be by himself in the garage/man-cave. He doesn't even have the decency to take Gabriel down there with him so I can wallow in self pity alone. Nope, he leaves him up there with me so I get no rest and it take me even longer to get better.
Every other month is my bad period where I have crazy cramps and all I want to do is curl into a ball with a heating pad on my stomach and just die. I can't even get a little break then either!! He doesn't want to be around me because I am in a bad mood too. Yeah, you would be in a bad mood too if you felt like this every other month and didn't have someone here to serve you 24/7! He wouldn't be able to handle the pain us ladies go through on our periods. I know that is why God made women's pain tolderance higher than men. Men just couldn't handle it!
So, about an hour ago, Gabriel fell asleep on my bed. I thought, This is the perfect time to take a nap myself. Well, I laid down and so did Josh. A few minutes later, Josh was out...I dozed off for about twenty minutes and then I woke up feeling worse than I had when I fell asleep. I'm too sick to take a nap! This is ridiculous! Josh and Gabriel are still passed out and here I am on the computer mad as hellfire and feeling like crap!!!
Thanks for reading my rant! Hopefully my next post will be on a lighter note!
So Josh went yesterday to his old job at the bus company to see if they would hire him back. They all said yes right away but he had to go today to get refingerprinted, take a drug test, and do a few other things before he can start driving again. They told him it could be three weeks before all of it comes back...so there goes a quick fix for that.
Some of my stress will hopefully be leaving here soon because Josh just went back to Social Services. The lady that we were working with the last time we were there called him back and said that we were approved for a part of TANF (Temporary Assistance for Needy Families) where we take our bills in to her and they pay up to a certain amount. And if we don't use the whole amount, they write the rest of it into a check for us...getting our bills paid and caught up will definitely take away some stress...but if he doesn't get a job soon, we are just going to be right back in the same boat.
We should be getting food stamps and unemployment within the next week or so, and that will help out too, but it would be so much easier if he could get a job...and one that pays halfway decent. (And yes, I know, there are a lot of people in the same boat, but we aren't talking about them haha) He has an interview with the railroad tomorrow and I am basically praying for a miracle....that they love him and hire him on the spot...that would be amazing, but I know that won't happen. He applied for Dish Network too. He would be driving around and installing the dish and he would be making good money. And, the good news with that is, that if he does get the Carilion job, he can still work the Dish Network job because the schedules are opposite times of the week. That would be awesome!
So, thank you all for your prayers so far and please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Friday, January 21, 2011
She fired him on Monday night.
Now, I am a stay at home mom. We have worked it out from the beginning so that I could stay home with our son (and other children if we decided to have any more), so Josh was the only one bringing in any income for our family. It has been pretty tight for a while because he hasn't been making a lot of money and it really hurt us when she didn't work him for an entire week, but now...I don't even know what to think.
It has been a pretty stressful week for us...(and I would appreciate some prayers)...so we have been back and forth between the unemployment office, social services to get food stamps and anything else we can apply for, and Josh has been applying for jobs anywhere and everywhere he can. He has an interview with the railroad on Wednesday and we are really hoping he gets some good news. (He has been hoping to get a railroad job for a long time now...we both have) So, please keep us in your thoughts on Wednesday and I will update you guys on that too.
I'm not sure what is going to happen, and to be honest, I am terrified, so please say a prayer for us...thanks!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
On slightly the same topic, I have been doing a lot of thinking about my job (my almost dream job) that we can't afford for me to begin the process of getting...so I am doing everything in my power to get as ready for it as I can, so that when we do have the money, I can jump in with both feet.
This job is, of course, Scuba Diving Instructor. I have to have all of my scuba equipment (and a lot of it before I even start taking the classes) so that is really what I am saving up for...and then of course I have to take the classes and work my way up to instructor (and I also want to do underwater photography)...but it is going to be a while before I can really get the ball rolling.
The Scuba shop that I am probably going to be getting a job with once I am an instructor (and also the place I am going to be doing all of my classes through) has a link with divessi.com to do a lot of online pre-classes. I have been doing those like crazy and I have been researching and reading and anything I can to be completely prepared.
I have also been emailing my instructor that I am going to take at least my first class with to let him know that I am still interested but we don't have the money to do it right now. He has been very understanding (it also helps that my dad knows him and most of the other instructors that work there) and very helpful with any questions I have about anything.
I can't wait to really dive in...haha...and Josh is completely supportive. I can tell that he wishes I could start right now and I know it bothers him that I can't, but he is doing his best. (And for those of you who know...that is high praise coming from me). I feel like, even though things are moving pretty slow right now, everything is finally starting to fall into place.
If Josh gets this job, or any better paying job with a better boss and more stable hours, the stress that is bothering both of us will all float away. And of course it will never completely go away...at least for me...but it will definitely help.
Thanks for all of the prayers and I will definitely update as I can! :)
Monday, January 10, 2011
I let my mom borrow Twilight (the movie) when it first came out and I was surprised that she actually liked it. Even though she isn't a huge fan of the paranormal, she loved the love story between Bella and Edward.
So last night, Gabriel and I were over at Mom and Dad's house and Twilight came on Showtimes so, while my dad was watching Gabriel, Mom and I watched Twilight. New Moon came on right after Twilight, and since my mom hadn't seen it, we decided to watch that too. Now, we all know how New Moon ends...Edward asks Bella to marry him, she gasps, and the movie ends.
I get a text message this morning from my mom and this is exactly what it said..."So I'm about to die to see the third movie"...I busted out laughing! I told her I didn't have it yet, but when I did I would let her borrow it. A little later on in the day I get another text message...she went out and bought Eclipse!
I have created a monster! And I love it!!!
She told me I could have it once she watched it, but she had to see it. And she was NOT HAPPY when I told her the fourth one doesn't come out until November and then that is only the first half of the movie...and the second half doesn't come out until the following November. She was definitely not a happy camper haha and she even said, "Well, I'm glad I didn't get into it earlier than now because I hate waiting." :) And then she told me that she would be going with me to see Breaking Dawn in theaters!
Oh, and guess what Team she is...
*pause for effect*
I thought she would like Jacob better, but she surprised me once again! I just love it! We are going to have a Twilight marathon once they are all out on dvd! :)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Reading these books makes me want to watch the movies and I'm really sad they didn't make a movie of the first book. It was so great. And, like I said, it explains the second book so well. You understand it a lot better if you know what happens in The Magician's Nephew. I can't wait to read all of them.
I love the way he writes. It's funny and smart and endearing all at once. I usually read one chapter a night to Gabriel and he falls asleep but last night I read four chapters (the last two of The Magician's Nephew and the first two of The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe) before he fell asleep. I think I might enjoy reading these books to him more than he does haha.
Once we have read all of the Chronicles of Narnia, I will have to pick another series of books to read to him. I have Inkheart by Cornelia Funke and I thought that I could get Inkspell and Inkdeath and read those to him as long as the content wasn't bad. I skip over whatever I don't want Gabriel to hear anyway so that wouldn't be a problem...like one of the characters tells another one to shut up in The Magician's Nephew and since I don't want Gabriel saying that (and since we have had a problem with him saying it and getting into trouble) I just said "be quiet" instead. But I'm not sure...I might try to find another series of books to read to him. Any suggestions? I want to read books to him that he can understand but not kiddie books...books that are longer than fifty pages and even better if it is a series.
I love reading to him and it relaxes him enough to go to sleep. He fights sleep and he gets so worked up sometimes when I leave him in bed. I used to just let him scream in his crib because he would eventually go to sleep, but then he would climb out of his crib and I was having the hardest time keeping him in there. Now that he is in a regular bed, there is no way he would stay in it...at least not without him getting out and me taking him back a million times. But now, I put him in bed, give him a kiss, and then sit down and read to him until he falls asleep. It is less stress on him and me as well, and it's so great to read to your kids when they are growing up.
Anyways, I went on about this a lot longer than I thought I was going to haha. I will write more later.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
I got a Primal Cookbook from my dad and there are so many great recipies in there that I can't wait to try. There are desserts in there that look amazing and with those, I won't even miss the things that I really love. And I can't wait to try the coconut pancakes...they look amazing!
Anyways, this is going to be a short little entry because I don't have a lot to write and I won't be able to update my weightloss until we get a new battery for my scale...but So Far, So Good :)
Monday, January 3, 2011
I have started following the Primal Blueprint. It is a healthy way to eat that mirrors our ancient ancestors. Eating lots of plants and animals, simple exercising, and a more positive outlook with less stress.
The biggest thing that I am having problems with is giving up my Diet Mountain Dew. I wanted to give them up anyway for my New Years Resolution because I drink way too many of them and I know they are what is making me feel like crap most of the time. I haven't had anything to drink but water since Friday...so I am having some pretty crazy caffeine withdrawals, but it is all worth it. (I'm also on my period and having killer cramps, so this year so far has been a bit of a pain.)
I have been doing really good with following the Primal lifestyle other than exercising. I just want to get the eating down before I throw something else in there.
It isn't a diet, because I am going to eat like this for the rest of my life, it is a lifestyle change that is only for the better! :)
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