Monday, August 23, 2010

Boring

That title doesn't mean this post is going to be boring, although it might be, I put that as the title because that is how I feel. Boring. I think that might be the reason behind all of my actions that are making me feel the way that I am. I have a very boring life. I don't do anything and I don't feel fun anymore. I'm ordinary. I know so many people that are interesting and fun and I'm a bit jealous. I am hoping that once I start on my scuba classes and get to be an instructor that I will feel like I have something to offer. Not a lot of people know how to scuba dive and they definitely aren't instructors so that will be a quality about myself that I will feel proud of. It will make me interesting again.
I think that because I feel boring, I have wanted to go out a lot more and hang out and I suppose just act like I am single and don't have any kids...and then that makes me feel like an awful mother and an awful wife. Does anyone else know what I'm talking about? Does anyone else feel like their life is boring? I guess I just get so run down doing the same old thing every day having pity party after pity party. Does anyone have any suggestions what I should do?

3 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry things haven't been going well lately! I'm glad you had fun on your birhtday; remember you are who you are no matter how much people want to change you. I'll keep you in my prayers! :)

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  2. I lead a very boring life - at least in my opinion. :( I have friends... but I never go out and do anything. My husband and I used to do stuff with friends too... but not anymore. It's weird... I feel like I'm a 60 year old woman trapped in a 22 year old's body. Praying for you.

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  3. Thanks guys. I feel like I am older than I am too. I know I should just be grateful for all of the things in my life, and I am, I guess I am just confused. I hope it passes...

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